Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Sands Of Time



My baby is almost 18 months and in the last two weeks she has grown by leaps and bounds in the language department.

How in the world did she suddenly take a ginormous step of epic proportions when I turned by back?!

It's a fourth child thing, I'm sure of it. She's got to be a big girl in order to keep up with the masses, you know. She's got words to speak in order to be heard since gone are the days when someone responds to her every cry.

I smile and respond to every new word: raisins, Jesus, mess, splash, baby, hat, eye, puppy, horse, cow and so many more.

Of course my favorite is Mommy. She graduated herself from Mama to calling me Mommy. She's growing up fast, she is, and she knows it.

Part of me breathes a sigh of relief that we made it this far all in one piece, because there was that day that I cried wondering if we'd all get here at all. The other part of me clings to what has passed and the present that flashes by with eager persistence.




Every few months we do this dance, Time and I. We reminisce and I pull back looking for what has been, but in the end we cling together and sail along. I wish to be more like Mary in my Martha world, but the dear Martha in me sees so much to be done around me that I haven't the time to take in each moment.

One day, I'll learn. I hope so any way. You'd think that by baby four all that I needed to know and learn about parenthood and the passage of time I would have done already.


'And Mary kept all these things, reflecting on them in her heart.'
Luke 2:19


I kiss the cheeks of the toddlers and grab one more faint glance. I desperately try to sear the image somewhere in the toddler files of my heart. I then turn to the Tween and the Boy and in a flash recall their toddler days as I struggle to embrace the new motherhood that their ages now call me into being.

I only hope and pray I can figure it out before I'm shoved right into the throws of Teenagers.

Time waits for no one. And neither do gray hairs.

Both of these things I know to be true based on experience.



6 comments:

  1. Sarah. This is beautiful. You are spot on, my bloggy friend...soak those precious littles up! : )

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  2. Enjoy those toddlers..kiss their cheeks tons! They do grow up so fast! You sure have a cute one on your hands!

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  3. That language thing is totally unique to the female species. My older son didn't say much until his 3rd birthday. He understood everything...just chose not to talk. Peter is now 17 months and signs "milk", "more", and "eat"...just enough to get his belly full!

    Like you, I look at my 13 year old and remember her as a toddler...where does the time go?!

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  4. *sigh* It's going by so fast isn't it, Sarah? Kisses and tight hugs to those beautiful babies!

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  5. I am getting teary over here looking at my one lone baby of almost 14 months. I'm going to go kiss those toddler cheeks right now.

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  6. Oh, Sarah, I loved this. I've realized (with all this wisdom I have -haha) that what I want most is for my kids to grow up feeling loved. I want them to always feel loved. I don't want any of them to get lost in the bunch. I think your reflections will not allow your kiddos to grow up feeling unloved.

    On the talking 1 1/2 year old thing, Simeon, just turned 19 mos yesterday and clearly says "Mama" now, and he roars for every animal except dogs and cows...he does bark and moo. Other than that, he doesn't say much that sounds like real words.

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